after the feast

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Who| Klaine
What| Kurt comes back from the feast to a Blaine who is extremely paranoid about losing him.
Where| Adventureland
When| Set right after the "feast"
Warnings/Notes| This is way backdated. Sorry folks! Candy and I got busy. Also, this is even more painful given the death roll this week.



[Blaine felt like he was going crazy. He was packing up the supplies they had in a hurry as he waited for every canon blast. He should have explained better. He should have been very, very clear with Kurt.

You don't go to their parties. You don't attend feasts. You don't go to anything they want you too.

All he could think about was the videos he had seen of the ways that they would set up Tributes. They had even done it to Katniss and she had almost died because of it! Oh god, what if it was Kurt now on the floor with some crazy person above him with a knife?

Blaine felt his heart hammering in his chest as he barely kept a hold of the panic.

He'd be sure to explain it now, if Kurt came back.

Please, please, please be okay.


He was just crossing toward the walkway the lead to Fantasyland when he saw Kurt returning. His stomach twisted up with so much relief that he didn't care about attracting attention.]

You're okay! [He yelled as he ran to Kurt. He looked pretty banged up but he was standing and hand all of his limbs. Blaine felt tears of relief come to his eyes and blinked them away stubbornly. he would not lose it in front of the entire Capitol.]

Oh thank God, you're okay.

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We kissed.

[showbizpanache]

We were half asleep.

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Exactly, because we didn't have the state of mind to convince ourselves otherwise.

It was amazing.

[showbizpanache]

[Kurt's stomach flips and he looks away, blushing.]

That's exactly it. We weren't in the right state of mind.

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But that didn't stop it from feeling right.

[showbizpanache]

Don't you think this is a bad time to talk about this?

[He shifts around uncomfortably.]

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Yeah, but it's always going to be a bad time. We're in a death match. We could lose each other any second.

[showbizpanache]

So what do you want me to say?

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The truth.

[showbizpanache]

[He sighs heavily, and the silence stretches for a while. When things get quiet in the arena, they get really quiet. Unnervingly so. Kurt's expression is, for the moment, unreadable, and he stares at a nearby tree, crossing his arms over his chest. When he speaks, his voice is small.]

We hooked up.

At Mr. Schue's wedding, we hooked up.

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[Of all of the things that Kurt could say, that definitely wasn't one that Blaine was expecting to hear. Despite everything, the idea floods him with a sense of optimistic hope and some of that shows on his face as the words sink in.]

[showbizpanache]

[He sees that look and sighs heavily.]

Blaine...

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Don't...

[Blaine starts before he can stop himself. For a moment he hesitates but then goes forward anyway.]

Don't tell me it didn't mean anything.

[showbizpanache]

[Kurt doesn't move back, but his expression is exasperated.]

It didn't, Blaine. It was just... [He sighs again.] I shouldn't have said anything.

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What? What was it, Kurt?

[Blaine knows that he can't really say either way. It hasn't happened to him yet, and it probably never will. He wants Kurt to tell him what he thought of it, to explain. He also wants to see if there's even a little bit of doubt in Kurt's voice when he says it meant nothing.]

[showbizpanache]

I don't know.

[His voice is quiet and trembling slightly. He's starting to get upset.]

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[Slowly, Blaine moves closer to him.]

Did you like it?

[showbizpanache]

Of course I did.

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Well, then that's the important part. We had fun.

[Because he doesn't even question if he enjoyed it. Of course he did. He was (will be?) with Kurt.

Still, saying it makes his mouth feel a little dry and his heart ache dully.]

[showbizpanache]

Yeah.

[He looks away from Blaine, but doesn't seem to mind that he's so close. That's the problem, isn't it? They're so close now, all the time. Kurt can't even think anymore.]

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Come on... [Blaine tries carefully, reaching out for Kurt's arm.]

You really should relax and let that medicine do its magic.

[showbizpanache]

Okay.

[He looks at Blaine's hand on his arm. The way it makes him feel--warm and safe--is not the way one is supposed to feel around their cheating ex-boyfriend. Kurt isn't even sure what he is supposed to feel. This is all so confusing, especially since all he wants to do is cling to Blaine until this nightmare is done and they can go home.]

But...

Blaine, when this is over, the arena is over? I think we should spend some time apart.

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[Blaine shakes his head as he helps Kurt back to their little camp.]

The Capitol is just as dangerous as the Arena, and it's only going to be a matter of time until the next one. We should stick together.

[showbizpanache]

[Another pause. Kurt isn't really sure at this point if Blaine's telling the truth or if he's just trying to keep Kurt close. Either one is a possibility.]

Blaine... This isn't good for us. [He tugs back his arm gently.] It's not good for me, it's-- It's confusing.

[He takes a step back.] It was easier in New York, you know?

[mediumdrip]

I'm sorry.

I don't want to confuse you but I can't take that risk. Please, I'll back off of the relationship stuff. I won't kiss you anymore if that makes you feel too confused, but please don't leave.