"I thought I didn't, I really did. I didn't think I could-" James sighed and tried to explain things in a sensible manner. "It's complicated but I didn't think I could actually have someone again after losing Mary. You don't know what it's like, to never move on and then suddenly realize you did and you never bothered to say goodbye. I drove my car into a lake, I was that desperate to be with her again."

And now, he wanted to leave Mary behind, sleeping forever at the bottom of Toluca Lake for Clara. He was devastated as he was conflicted. He didn't want to lose Mary's memory, he still loved her so much but...

"Now I don't want to go back to her. Why am I telling you?" His voice was dreamlike again, a man stuck in a memory.