As much as this hurts, it's only a physical pain, which will inevitably subside; the fact that it'll subside by killing her is largely irrelevant. Later, if the Capitol brings her back to life again, Nill knows that there won't be a mark left on her, and any pain that she feels will be entirely in her head, phantom pains because even after two deaths for some reason her mind is still slightly incapable of recognizing that because the wounds are gone it shouldn't be sending pain signals out anymore. Even those will pass, and she'll be fine again.
But Karkat is never going to forget this. He cares too much for that. There's a certain brand of hell that comes from being completely incapable of helping someone right in front of you, crueler and more painful than any wound, and Nill would rather take an injury like this a dozen times over than be the one sitting in Karkat's position right now.
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As much as this hurts, it's only a physical pain, which will inevitably subside; the fact that it'll subside by killing her is largely irrelevant. Later, if the Capitol brings her back to life again, Nill knows that there won't be a mark left on her, and any pain that she feels will be entirely in her head, phantom pains because even after two deaths for some reason her mind is still slightly incapable of recognizing that because the wounds are gone it shouldn't be sending pain signals out anymore. Even those will pass, and she'll be fine again.
But Karkat is never going to forget this. He cares too much for that. There's a certain brand of hell that comes from being completely incapable of helping someone right in front of you, crueler and more painful than any wound, and Nill would rather take an injury like this a dozen times over than be the one sitting in Karkat's position right now.
"Don't you know that?"