There's a jerk in him when all she shooshes him. A twitch like he's been electrocuted. His jaw works then snaps shut. He doesn't dare look at her.

The kindness is overwhelming and terrible and he can't bear it. He can't bear her promises, especially knowing there's no way he won't pay, there's not a chance, he knows it.

She lets go of his shoulders and he both is and isn't relieved. The hand she takes is still loose like he can separate and disconnect from the contact made if he doesn't put effort in. The other one grips his book tight. He follows.