"COULD'VE LEFT HER IN THE TREES. She would all have bled out as barkbeast bait. SHE WOULD BE DEAD IN THE HOUR. I culled the daywalker what got her leg. THOUGHT TO CAUTERIZE, SO AS TO STOP THE BLOOD. Would've drawn the beasts, it would. I TOOK HER TO HIDEAWAYS FOUND AND KEPT. Gamzee didn't touch her, he didn't do nothing. THOUGHT AS TO DO IT ALL WITHOUT CULLING HER. I burned her. SHE SCREAMED. But I've done worse before. I'VE DONE SO MUCH MOTHERFUCKING WORSE. She couldn't take it. I GOT HER HEAD ALL SNAPPED TWISTWAYS AND SHE WAS GONE AS GONE."
He sways on the spot, antsy and unhappy, but not being able to go no ways else. He's still coming apart, melting away by the minute, and so hungry.
"Could keep her alive, could've made her keep, culled all them beasts, let her have his hiding. GAMZEE. I wanted... DIDN'T WORK, DIDN'T MOTHERFUCKING WORK. They'd have come for her, they'd have come for him. I CAN'T SAVE, I AIN'T FUCKING KNOW HOW! I can't save no one. KNEW YOU'D WANT HER SAFE. Couldn't up and do it."
CULL HIM IF YOU WANT. HE WON'T BLAME YOU. HE WON'T STOP IT.
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"COULD'VE LEFT HER IN THE TREES. She would all have bled out as barkbeast bait. SHE WOULD BE DEAD IN THE HOUR. I culled the daywalker what got her leg. THOUGHT TO CAUTERIZE, SO AS TO STOP THE BLOOD. Would've drawn the beasts, it would. I TOOK HER TO HIDEAWAYS FOUND AND KEPT. Gamzee didn't touch her, he didn't do nothing. THOUGHT AS TO DO IT ALL WITHOUT CULLING HER. I burned her. SHE SCREAMED. But I've done worse before. I'VE DONE SO MUCH MOTHERFUCKING WORSE. She couldn't take it. I GOT HER HEAD ALL SNAPPED TWISTWAYS AND SHE WAS GONE AS GONE."
He sways on the spot, antsy and unhappy, but not being able to go no ways else. He's still coming apart, melting away by the minute, and so hungry.
"Could keep her alive, could've made her keep, culled all them beasts, let her have his hiding. GAMZEE. I wanted... DIDN'T WORK, DIDN'T MOTHERFUCKING WORK. They'd have come for her, they'd have come for him. I CAN'T SAVE, I AIN'T FUCKING KNOW HOW! I can't save no one. KNEW YOU'D WANT HER SAFE. Couldn't up and do it."
CULL HIM IF YOU WANT. HE WON'T BLAME YOU. HE WON'T STOP IT.
He silences the fear entirely.