"What I'm saying is, how long do you want to not be a fighter? Think about it, how many times have you done this? After awhile, people are gonna know that you won't kill, that you can't. So they'll know to expect that every time. Some people will try to kill you quickly, be merciful. But some just like to see the life drain out of you, how you lose your breath in the last precious fucking moments you have. So you tell me: even if you have the best intentions, how easily do you trust the people here to let you go nicely?"

There was suicide, and then there was this.